Anonymous (via thatslove)
I feel like a corny idiot for reblogging this. LOL
He was always the one to like everyone of my posts
Someone who would like my post I wrote on Facebook.
Are you really gonna go the distance to avoid the topic? I’m only trying to fix this or confirm that it really is broken. Putting it off won’t make things better; it’s only going to fester into irrevocable damage. Grow the fuck up and stop running from your problems.
“I don’t want to give my heart to you
cuz I’m afraid of what will happen
and the things that you’ll do”
-David Choi, Always Hurt
Maybe he’s right. Maybe we shouldn’t rush into it. I said I could deal with the constant separation. I said I could deal with the lack of attention. But here I am now —not even a day later — tripping about not getting a reply to a text. I hate thinking like this. Goddamn it, I’m just hoping I’m not in for the hurt this time around.
In 2009, I’ve accomplished my New Year’s resolution: to be outgoing, confident, and to step out of my comfort zone once in a while. I’m proud of that victory against my fears because in the past I was always that kid that found excuses to avoid social events, scared of people and what they would think of me. I grew out of it, thankfully, but I feel that I’ve gone too far with my transformation. I went from shy and timid to obscene and boastful. I’ve treated a lot of people as if they were inferior to me, and I had no right to. Instead of having low self-esteem, I now think too highly of myself. I have yet to find that space in between, and I will. I’m like a balance seeking equilibrium, needing to find that perfect adjustment between confidence and modesty. I hope with the new month, the new year, and the new decade, brings forth a new man. So here is what my year is dedicated to:
- To be modest.
- To not procrastinate and do all of my homework.
- To remind those I love that I love them, upon every departure.
- To be nice to everyone.
- To not be a slut ;)
- To cuss less.
- To not make my parents worry
- To be a respectable man
I still need to blog my new years resolution and stuff. lol I will when I get back home. But until then, catch me in SoCal :D